Aidan and Daddy

Attitude Adjustment

"It is our attitude at the beginning of a
difficult task which, more than anything
else, will affect its successful outcome."
William James

Tuesday evening Ryan and I went to the hospital to see Aidan. When we walked in I wanted to run out and was on the verge of tears.

In his room were two other babies and the room is really only big enough for two babies total. The room was hot and cramped. No privacy whatsoever and it was just all around uncomfortable. I gave Aidan his bottle and then had to leave. I felt like I couldn't breathe and I was already sobbing.

I ran out of the NICU with Ivie and then called my Mom. I was so sad and depressed. Just ready for this to be over. I had a bad attitude and kept saying, "Why me? Why us? I'm done!"

Later that evening we went to see Ryan's family one more time before they left and I was horrible. I didn't talk or smile. I was just depressed and feeling sorry for myself. I hit rock bottom.

Yesterday I woke up feeling better, but still pretty low. Then I decided that I needed an attitude adjustment. I have A LOT to be grateful for. Yes, this experience has been hell but it's almost over. And Aidan is here. He's healthy and he's here! I get to take care of him and raise him.

I decided that if this experience needs to continue for another few days, or weeks, I need to change or it is going to be LONG.

My friend sends me his daily quotes and these totally fit for me yesterday. Thanks Dave!

I am so thankful to my loving Heavenly Father for holding Aidan in His hands over the last 78 days. He has blessed us beyond measure.

"The really happy person is one who can
enjoy the scenery when on a detour."
Eleanore Duyndam

Grandma Jeanne/Collette and Family Visit

I think this sign is cute!

Beautiful building...with people sleeping at it's doors. Hmm...

Aidan Meets Grandma Jeanne!